Argh. I am so confused and yet angry at the same time. I've been a believer in God since I was young, but these days I balance on a tightrope seperating atheism or theism. There is just so much reasoning for God's non-existence, and yet years of teaching from elders have ingrained a strong belief in Him. It makes so much sense to say he does not exist, but it also makes alot of sense to say he does.
One thing that irritates me most is arguments in which peoples say God did not help me here, or God was not watching over me during this and people just say that God had meant for these events to happen as they did. When ever something unGodly happens, we always say it was God's will.
I was in a car wreck some weekends ago. It's a miracle that I lived. Or is it? We were in a tiny sub compact doing 105 down the road (MPH) and we lost traction and slammed head on into a boulder. We both came out great. Some bruising on the driver, a chipped tooth for me. Most accidents like that are fatal (or so I've heard) but.... I don't know.
I need some help, some serious guidance.