the reason i havent been on qj (or the internet for that matter) very much lately is because ive been off with my friends getting wasted, partying, and wreaking havoc on this small suburban town in arkansas.
heres a picture of my girlfriend currently..
i couldnt be happier.
but saturday i had a wakeup call..
these past 2 days have been horrible. im giving up drugs, partys, alcohol etc.. all that. its ruined mine and a few of my close friends lives. this was the low point for my summer. and heres the story..
(sorry for the huge wall of text.)
my friends sharelly(my girlfriend), lynnette(her best friend), seth(her boyfriend), and i(me -_-) made a plan to all sneak out and go to the lake saturday night. when we got there we each took about 8-10 dramamine and snorted a whole bunch of xanax on some old ass dock we broke into. after that we all had the idea to go skinny dipping. wooohoo!! yeah sounds fun so far eh? on our way back into town after a night of fun, we dropped off seth in beaver shores and took a wrong turn. we were driving kinda fast because i had to be home by 5. so we were speeding down some dark unfamiliar street out by beaver lake and all the sudden we see ahead a sign that says "dead end". we slammed on the brakes and swerved out of the way where we went into these peoples yard and hit a boat. after we hit the boat we panicked and backed up really fast and then accidentally backed into a mailbox. we were all ****ed up on pills and alcohol so we had the smartass idea to try to make it back into town with the car smoking and the engine hanging halfway out of the ****ing hood. so we take off. we were all freaking out. sharelly was balling and i kept having to keep her attention on the road because we almost ran into a ditch several times. we were ALMOST out of there when the car finally gave out on us. it broke down on the side of the road.. 1 more mile we would have been back in rogers. so there we were. stuck out there in a car filling with smoke. thats when the police show up. a cop car comes down the hill, sees us, and stops. he asked us our names and if we were the ones who had damaged this guys property. he had sharelly get out of the car and do a sobriety test.. she couldnt stand up by herself. i tried arguing with the cop telling him she was just really nervous but he made me roll up my window. after that they took me out of the car and asked me some questions. i took more pills than anyone but i somehow passed all the sobriety tests and the cops thought i was the only sober one in the car. they knew everyone else was ****ed up and they forced me into telling them what they were by threatening me. at first i said i didnt know what they were but after the cop was about to handcuff me and take me to jail i told them i thought it was xanax and they let me go. i went and sat back in the car and then they took lynnette out of the car and questioned her. she couldnt even stand up. after that my dad showed up and he took me home. i didnt get into any trouble with the police but im pretty much stuck at home for the rest of the summer. im not sure what happened to lynnette but sharelly was taken to the hospital where they took blood tests on her to see exactly what all she had taken. shes being charged with damaging private property, driving under the influence, and fleeing the scene of an accident. it's going to be $800 to fix her car and $8000 to repair the boat. which i think is total bull**** cus it was parked halfway in the road and it was a crappy boat anyway. theres no way a kia could do $8000 worth of damage to that piece of ****. but yeah. sharelly and lynnettes lives are ruined. they cant even look at each other. they can never talk to each other again. once they found out the pills were seths they put out a warrant for his arrest. i dont know what will happen with him. somehow im the one who isnt in trouble. i was always the one who wanted to sneak out. i was the one who was doing the most drugs. i was the one who wanted to go to the lake. this is all my fault. ive ruined everyones lives. now sharelly's life is a living hell because of her ******* father who hits her and no one can even contact lynnette or seth. sharelly will never have a car ever again. she can never talk to any of her friends ever again. she has to dye her hair back to the her original color. and she can't ever wear makeup ever again. oh and shes also going to a private school. and she has to get all new clothes because her dad hates the way she dresses. sharelly wants to kill herself and im trying my hardest to keep her from doing it. if it werent for me right now she would have done it last night. she would be dead. its taking everything i have to be there for her and keep her from hurting herself even more than sh already has. theres not much more i can even do. shes simply given up hope and refuses to acknowledge that things are going to get any better. but who can blame her? if you knew what she was going through you would have abandoned all hope too.
im sorry if i come off as the guy who whines about his personal life on the internet but i just thought id let you guys know about something big that happened in my life recently.
im going to be posting a lot more now because i doubt im going to be able to leave my house for a while..
and yes i know im a stupid teenager and i made some pretty crappy decisions. but im giving it all up. im sober from now on.