Guys, I'd really like some positive re-inforcement here. As you may already know I used to post a lot in this forum, and with great passion.
As you may not already know however, I have been working on a story of mine for nearly six years now. I started trying to write drafts a long time ago but never could actually complete one out of perfectionist disgust. As a result, I turned to my best friend for help with the story, and it was his suggestion that we spend the time up until college to brainstorm, then actually write the story once we were in college. Well, I ended up moving away, but it was still my intention for us to both attend the same college so that we could fulfill my plans. At this point, whether or not my story suceeds relies on whether or not he is as big a help as I have always hoped. This has caused a lot of problems, and now I'm having second thoughts at the worst possible time.
I have to move away to attend college if I hope to work together with my friend on the story. Whether or not we're going to turn it into a book series or a movie script is uncertain, because I've never been able to force myself to finish a full draft of anything, but I refuse to just give up. However, I don't want to move away because I have a girlfriend whom I love dearly and I hate to be away for her for very long. I know that our relationship CAN handle this sort of thing, but I hate to put us both through this if I'm doing it for the wrong reasons.
I have no idea what to major in... and I believe my story is good enough that if I WERE to somehow make it big, I would reach wachowski like status, yet I'm paranoid about telling anyone else what the plot is (for fear of losing control of my lifes work to someone who wants to steal it) which means I can never get much literary help.
I'm wondering if I should look into some sort of medication to help me concentrate. However, if it were effective enough to help me put into practice all of the thoughts I've had in the past six years, there would be no reason for me to move at all. I could write books from home and live like a fat cat... but I have to take classes in case my dreams come crashing down.
On top of that, a friend of mine is giving me some serious crap about moving. He's making me feel really bad about leaving him behind because he doesnt understand why I should move away to go to college.
...I don't have any idea what to do...