more family problems -___________-
When I was 5 or 6, I used to let my older brother rub his penis against my butt for trinkets, especially a really pretty ring. Sometimes, I don't care, sometimes I get really pissed that I lost that ring.
I haven't been able to form a healthy relationship since, including with my mother. Sometimes, I blame her for letting it happen.
But now, every friendship I enter into consciously is based on a want of sex. I only make friends with girls.
I think he made me a lesbian.
I want to say thank you for that, but I know people will think I'm crazy and I doubt he remembers any of it.
Instead, I hug him as tight as I can the two or three times a year I see him and try not to cry.
I'm thankful, but if any guy tries to touch me again, I'll castrate him with the switch I keep in my boot.